Just like many others, I was offered to have the gastric bypass but, I knew that I was fearfully and wonderfully made. My body didn’t fail me but, rather I failed myself. After listening to my doctor I decided to get a Lap band inserted. Ha ha, was that a BIG JOKE! That very same day I was home eating macaroni and cheese, mashed potatoes and fried chicken the very next day. Needless to say I quickly learned how to defeat this new device. I kept the lap band in for a year and nothing happened. At one point my doctor made it so tight; I couldn’t even keep water down! I eventually had it removed after one year. I was still 387 pounds. It just didn’t work for me and the reason why is because my mindset did not change. One day after having an “ah ha” moment I realized my struggle with weight consisted of a few factors.
First, I discovered that my initial problem was that I needed to MAKE MYSELF A PRIORTY!!!! I recognized that I struggled greatly with the “SUPERWOMAN” syndrome and that was simply being everything for everybody, meanwhile neglecting myself. I was the wife, the mother, the professional, the volunteer, the counselor, the advisor, the mentor, the coach, the confidant, the ministry leader, the homemaker, and caretaker. I wore all of these hats and I wore them well; yet I was literally allowing myself to die! It was this moment of reflecting that I decided to be SELFISH for once, take time out to care for, and minister to me!
Secondly, I recognized that I was LAZY. In ALL of my daily services I recognized that they required minimal physical activity but rater mental. For example, I drove myself to work, I drove my children around, and I walked and sat and walked and sat!
Lastly, I realized that my relationship with food was truly unhealthy. Culturally, the traditional preparations of all of my favorite foods were disgustingly unhealthy, my meal portions were unbalanced, and because my life was always on the go I found myself constantly eating on the run! This included every fast-food pit stop you could imagine! Not to mention every other thing I put in my mouth consisted of sugar and or carbs. ALL of this led me to a whopping 387 pounds for almost 20 years. I carried around this weight until I TOLD MYSELF the BITTER TRUTH! KEYSHA girl you’re going to die if you continue on with this eating habit!!! I made up in my mind enough was enough and I began on the “Blaq Butterfly” journey of transformation!
My desire was to #KILLFAT and so that became my hashtag. I made myself a PRIORITY and decided every day to dedicate time to myself. My friend launched a 10 week weight loss challenge in June of 2014. I joined and since then I have never looked back! I recognized that I had to have an entire lifestyle change which consisted of diet and exercise. I learned that weight loss is 80 % of what you eat and 20% of what you do. This urged me to study portion control and hit the gym every day. Now I meal prep, count calories, and workout everyday up to 3 times a day but most importantly I have a new lease on LIFE.
“Blaq Butterfly” the brand represents the process of a healthy lifestyle and a healthy relationship with food. Our goal is to teach and empower others to #KILLFAT by first transforming the mind and making themselves a priority! “For as he thinketh in his heart, so is he.” Proverbs 23:7, KJV